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so here I'm blogging once again abt my life. It will be lame as other posts i dont care.Someone needs to speak up for me apparently my diary cant so here I'm penning down my thoughts. Even the weather in Chennai is so pleasant but not I. I hate myself to be like this dumb bored empty numb & having that one thought in mind that eats up every other thought in yew.

My modals are going on its high time I study but cant seem to sit with books nor completed my records or anything wrapped around din my blanket staying on the bed and music is what my life at present is.Know what its hard to trust anyone nowadays everyone seems selfish. Life shouldn't be like this so dull especially for a coll student even music sucks but somebody do speak in it its kinda good.Ppl dont sympathize me i hate it.

Nowadays I keep missing yew so much though I wanted to get over yew.Why the fuck?

Yo status msgs bugs me.That too thjose one's off late.I want to hi5 yo face. Its just gettin hard day by day.

I hate to be like this don't want this thing again in my life but I kinda have no other option.

Attitude?I got loads of them ppl call me for my attitude but why not over yew? Try to do something new but end up with nothing.Try for some fun and hurt yourself.Damn.

Do yo know how many times I came to fb to check out yo prof yo so called funny comments and videos and postings on others wall and conversation.I dont want to be like this but why still?I dont know I tried so many things but still.Not to mention those nights when yo cant get a wink all yo can do is think abt them even though yo dont want to.

Its funny yo know yo maintain limits with others who doesnt want to and yo want to be with the person who wants certain limit's.And not to mention about that childhood love   fuck em all.....Damn annoyed damnit

Why should yo be that special person for me? Yo Good morinin msg turns my day around but no msgs not even a forward cos yo got nothin to  talk to me but got all nonsense to talk along with yo friends.Ad mist hardships we want a special someone why should i allow yo to be tht special someone for me.Yo want that special someone to call yo or text yo yo check yo mob so many times but still yo cant find any text from them.Yo always have a special place for them in which yo don't want others to come.Its strange how place time and word can remind yo those person.Before, yo come home during noon yo rush to check yo mob for msg's but now yo dont want to go home itself.I'm not blaming nor pointing the finger at yew for all these hustings none to blame.i have no regrets.But the pain and thinking that yew arent with me thats it.

Its not that I want yew with me every time.But its just I dont want any1 else to have yew for a second.Yeah possessiveness is what 'm taking about.

Damn feelings but why do i get these when nothing is gonna change giving onli hurts. I read my imaniculousme post often but still i cant keep my mind in control.I'm emotional i accept not to all.Nowadays the count of ppl i'm emotional to are also coming down not cos they are leaving me cos i dont feel comfortable with them :( sorry guys but i need time maybe a lot i suppose.

Why am i writing here?I dont know.Yo know when yo sent a msg how are yew I was flying but still i couldnt reply yew :( I wasnt sick today but hard feelings for yew couldnt just resist it.

Almost all of my friends who know about us can able to guess why i'm depressed all they is she's not worth it.She thinks yew as one of the guys and not as Sino.she's cheating blah blah blah but i know about yew the person who yo actually are about your priorities then why I cant let yo go? 

even a movie reminds me of yew.Think of it a car journey to the loneliset beach ever a sunset yo and I start to walk i stop for a while yo turn around,I fall on my knees and give yo a ring.

Damn yo wont see tis but still why why why? Cos I love ya still.Deep in my heart I still haven't changed I haven showed it for a while.

Even fa this b'day I wish yew again.Btw I dont like my b'day to come.Yo'll be busy and will say happy b'day have a blast then say nothing and hang the phone. :( 

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With fists flying up in the air
Like we’re holding onto something that’s invisible there
Cuz we’re living at the mercy of the pain and the fear
Until we dead it forget it
Let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It’s out of my control

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It’s hard to let you go

I know what it takes to move on
I know how it feels to lie
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last
I wish it wasn’t so

What was left when that fire was gone
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it’s like moving on

And I don’t even know what kind of things I said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
Picking up those pieces now where to begin
The hardest part of ending is starting again

All I wanna do is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven’t got

This is not the end
This is not the beginning
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violent rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty withing them

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Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you


Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Girl it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

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Her eyes make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day
Yeah, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say



When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Because you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are
Her laugh, she hates but I think it's so amazing

She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say
When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Because you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while

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I'd rather be with you
Until I'm through
Oh yes, I do
I'd rather be with you
Until that day we'll fly away
I just love
That smiling face
In the early sun
If I can't have you
To myself, then life's no fun

I need to be bold
Need to jump in the cold water
Need to grow older with a girl like you
Finally see you are naturally
The one to make it so easy
When you show me the truth
Yeah, I'd rather be with you
Say you want the same thing too
Now here's the sun, come to dry the rain
Warm my shoulders and relieve my pain
You're the one thing that I'm missing here
With you beside me I no longer fear

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I know it might seem silly for yew but gal yo make me like this.Yo only yo in the end I wish to have.